Hello guys im really hoping I can get some help here, I have really noone else to talk with about this.
Me and my wife have been in a relationship for about 1 1/2 years, we have been living together for about a year and finally decided to get married in October. All throughout our relationship we have always argued, mainly due to my jealousy issues that I have. While I have never caught her with another man or anything of that nature I am extremly jealous and see things often times when there is probably nothing there. That has lead me to constantly batter her about everything sadly.
Anyways to make a long story short we have broken up twice before over these issues, but I always tell here im going to change and get her to come back. And sadly I never really change:( I wish I was one of those people that could wait untill I actually had some REAL proof before I started to accuse people but sadly (for me) that is not who and what I am.
As of two weeks ago she finally had enough and one day while I thought she was going out shopping with her cousin I come home to find that she has moved all her stuff.. Long storie short she decided agianst moving in with relatives who she thinks will be all in her buisness and appears to have moved into some type of extended stay shelter for Women....This is killing me to know that my feels like she needs to live in a shelter instead of at our home but she will not come back. She says it is over and she will NEVER come back! She was'nt answering my phone calls and if she would call back it would be hours later or even the next day. Everytime I ask her why it took so long to call me back she says she is busy. Naturally the crazy man inside me is thinking that she is cheating with someone, even though I REALLY think she is in a shelter....
Im sorry im rambling but I need to get this out. I have since called about counsling and actually went to my first session 1 week ago and have scheduled a once a week visit. I begged her to go with me but she says she will not, it's something I need to do bymyself. Even when I tell her that the lady can maybe help fix our marriage and her anger issues, she still refuses.
Yesturday I told here I loved here to death and wanted her to come back and she started to cry and told me its over and she needs to move on and never talk to me agian, she says her counselor at the shelter even said she should not talk to me (what type of counselor is THIS!!!) and should change here NUMBER!! That is was the last time I talked to her and I am scared to death that she will never try to talk to me ever agian.
I will continue my classes and I am definatly aware that I need help, but I really love this women and would do anything for her. I just want her BACK! Please Please tell me what I should do, im dying here. It literally feels like I am dying.
Me and my wife have been in a relationship for about 1 1/2 years, we have been living together for about a year and finally decided to get married in October. All throughout our relationship we have always argued, mainly due to my jealousy issues that I have. While I have never caught her with another man or anything of that nature I am extremly jealous and see things often times when there is probably nothing there. That has lead me to constantly batter her about everything sadly.
Anyways to make a long story short we have broken up twice before over these issues, but I always tell here im going to change and get her to come back. And sadly I never really change:( I wish I was one of those people that could wait untill I actually had some REAL proof before I started to accuse people but sadly (for me) that is not who and what I am.
As of two weeks ago she finally had enough and one day while I thought she was going out shopping with her cousin I come home to find that she has moved all her stuff.. Long storie short she decided agianst moving in with relatives who she thinks will be all in her buisness and appears to have moved into some type of extended stay shelter for Women....This is killing me to know that my feels like she needs to live in a shelter instead of at our home but she will not come back. She says it is over and she will NEVER come back! She was'nt answering my phone calls and if she would call back it would be hours later or even the next day. Everytime I ask her why it took so long to call me back she says she is busy. Naturally the crazy man inside me is thinking that she is cheating with someone, even though I REALLY think she is in a shelter....
Im sorry im rambling but I need to get this out. I have since called about counsling and actually went to my first session 1 week ago and have scheduled a once a week visit. I begged her to go with me but she says she will not, it's something I need to do bymyself. Even when I tell her that the lady can maybe help fix our marriage and her anger issues, she still refuses.
Yesturday I told here I loved here to death and wanted her to come back and she started to cry and told me its over and she needs to move on and never talk to me agian, she says her counselor at the shelter even said she should not talk to me (what type of counselor is THIS!!!) and should change here NUMBER!! That is was the last time I talked to her and I am scared to death that she will never try to talk to me ever agian.
I will continue my classes and I am definatly aware that I need help, but I really love this women and would do anything for her. I just want her BACK! Please Please tell me what I should do, im dying here. It literally feels like I am dying.
