PLEASE HELP i have been married to this man for 10 years now - together for 13. About 4 years ago, he began taking prescription pain killers. However, as time passed, he began to use more and more - to the point of buying them off the street to get through until the next refill. I and some friends did an intervention about 2 years ago; which led him to go into a rehab - where he only stayed for one week. Then it continued. I was stupid and kept my mouth shut until recently. However, once I infromed him I was thinking of leaving - he again went into a rehab - only to stay for 5 days. Although he has not returned to taking the same pills he had been taking - he is still taking pills that he is getting off the streets - supposedly the kind that they use to aid in getting him off of what he was previously on. I have remained in the home to date - but, plan on informing him this evening that I have to go - at least for a while; so I can determine if I do really still love him (a question he asked before he went to rehab this past time). I'm sure heloves me in his way -- but not sure I cna live with the constant fear of when he will return to his addiction. I have recently been finding out that this is also what broke up his first marriage.
NOW ANOTHER BIG PROBLEM! Over the past two months, I have been back in touch with some old friends from high school days. One in particular has been keeping very close contact; and has informed me of how much he has always cared for and loved me - despite not seeing one another more than once or twice in all these years (about 27 years). Funny thing is -- I too have often thought of him over the years - and wished something could have worked out between us. I saw this person about a week ago - and we seemed to pick right up where we left off - maybe even then some. He hugged me - and before we left the park we all were at - he walked off with me - hugged me tight and then kissed me. (It was better than I had thought of all those years!) But, at the same time - I am still married. He is well aware of my situation - the whole story - addiction - do I want to leave - the works! He has informed me that he hopes it works out for me - and been very sweet in listneing and understanding - just as I always remembered him. Before I left, he smiled and told me "Take that with you. Maybe someday..." I don't want to see him on a rebound - but, I purposely haven't spoken to him in 2 days and find myself missing him terribly!
Can someone advise me on this two-fold problem - and help me get my brain back in order before I get burned completely!!